3:25 a.m. ~ reloaded
i needed to break my vows… just to better understand my situation in life. i needed to step outside my mind and look down at us, at life, and all that it has to offer. the problem with me for the past one week was that i had stopped smiling… and i wasnt frowning either… i had a lot pent up inside but i wasnt crying either… a one week phase that i had to pull myself out of. with just a little help from my friends. yes my grace is gone. but i dont need to think. one more drink my grace is gone.
im not getting enough ‘me alone’ time to myself.
need to look for freelance setups that turned into companies in the far east.
i need to calm down. take time to smell the flowers. play it slow.
and if some mother fuckers parents turn around and say bad things about me or my family… i just wouldn’t like to associate myself with them. the world is a very large place. and life is too short to hold grudges or be the grudge that someones been holding for a very long time.
i need to change my doctor and get back on track.
be who you are. say what you feel. because the people that mind don’t matter and the people who matter don’t mind.
